( love,why me?)
By chidinma jerry.
“Shreya say yes,you are breaking my heart” I said
” Sam promise not to hurt me again” she said
“I won’t”I said
“Will you trust me?”she said
“Yes I will” I said
“Yes,i will marry you” she said.
I covered her well and deeped her into my arms.
She held me tight and closed her eye.
I looked at her face for a while I couldn’t help but remember how troublesome she was before.
I kissed her with her eye closed and she wouldn’t unlock from the kiss we both smiled until she finally let go then she gently brushed into my hair and kissed Me again I smiled.
She closed her eye.
her phone rang but it was silent.
She was trying to sleep so I didn’t bother her.
The person finally sent a text,Michael.
gosh !!can I really cope?
✉✉ baby I miss you and you didn’t come like you promised.
Ok here’s what, I got a room in your favorite hotel and I can’t wait for you to come. by 2 tomorrow don’t forget, its Michael✉✉
I wanted the delete the message but I couldn’t.
I am scared but I really want to test her.
I want to know deep she has sank into this material world.
I kissed her forehead.
God help me..I also have my own temperaments.
I hugged her tight after marking the message as unread.
Early the next morning she already bathed I cant belive she always wakes before me.
I dragged her gown and she turned to face Me so I pulled her into my arms and hugged her tight.
” why do u always wake up early?”i asked
“Well my morning rituals was always early,the first ritual is by 3am”she said.
“What 3am inside ocean,with python” I said and she used her hand to cover my mouth
” shhhh the goddess is everywhere” she said
She removed her hand from my mouth and kissed me tight i chuckled into her lips.
She kissed me for a while while brushing her fingers into my neck.
I missed her.
We kissed deeply finding our rhythm again.
I felt her fingers brush down my tummy where she played her hands on I kissed her more tightly.
And just when I lost expected it she deeper her fingers into my shorts and held me down there softly making me groan.
She unlocked from the kiss and gently removed her fingers.
I don’t think she can wait till the wedding anymore.
” sam Am sorry, i got , well–
” you can’t wait?”i asked.
I pulled her in and lifted her gown from her head she smiled and kissed me tightly.
I wanted to unhook her bra when I revived a text.
oh no i need to get to work.
jeez the dealer forgot to sign one paper and he is about travelling.
I carefully withdrew from her.
” uhmm baby I need to–
“Its ok ..am here” she said and smiled difficultly.
“I will be back before–
“Am ok,take your time.” She said.
I walked into the shower.
I closed the door then opened it to watch her.
God she was so restless.
Someone please Restore her real self back
SHREYA moved her hair back with both hands and took a deep breath.
She drank water and sat back.
She tried dipping her fingers into her self but she stopped.
She picked her phone and dropped it back
She picked it again and I guess that was when she saw the message.
She placed a call and ran out So i showered.
Finally I walked out and she was on the bed..still looking restless.
” uhmmm Sam dont you have even 30 minutes?” She asked.
“I checked my time
“No, do u need something?”i said.
” don’t worry”she said.
” baby when will you be back?”she Said
“Maybe 4″I said.
“What!! I mean ok..”She added.
I kissed her tight and dressed up then rushed out.
I don’t feel secure leaving SHREYA behind
But I need to trust her..I need to learn To trust her.
This is the womsn I want to marry
Self control Is important and she has lost hers.
I can’t believe she was so restless.
God please intervene.
Soon I arrived and met the man
I wasn’t comfortable so I hurried everything and went home by 3.
I arrived but she wasn’t there
I fell on the chair gosh.
My heart beat sank.
I waited for hours and hours and finally after I was done settling.
She came by 4:30, wearing this skimpy gown.
” Sam you are back, i bought somethings for you …also for our trip to —
“Where are you coming from dressed like that?”i said.
” samrhat don’t …
” so u couldn’t even stay home shreya..just few hours I left you already went out to meet some guy” I said.
She wiped her tears.
” I didn’t do anything wrong Sam, let me talk”she said.
“I saw the text he sent u,i saw that text but I thought u Wont go,i thought u wanted us to work. Too bad, I was wrong. once an escort is—-
“Say it…samrhat complete that statement.
say it it to me, its okay as long as its you who said it..as long as you who is hurting me” she said.
Oh God, what did i say?
what’s wrong with me?
But Can we really work?
Can shreya really never change?
Can she change.?
Can I cope?
Shroud I leave shreya?