( love,why me?)
By chidinma jerry.
She stood up
“I love you so much that’s why u told you not to love me,not to marry me.
i can’t get mad at you Sam cos I am not even good enough for you.
Remember I told you that i wasn’t your shreya anymore, this is my reality;i can’t stay without a man.
i left u to see a man and I will keep leaving to see a men until you understand that i wasn’t made for you baby.
am an escort and am even embarrassed to cal you mine.leave me Sam let me go I wont be mad at you if you let me go”i said.
“I can’t believe you just agreed to the fact that you went out to sleep with a man shreya, I wanted to make you my wife”I said.
“Well am not good enough for you,u can’t keep me in the house,i can’t be a decent wife to you.”She said.
She took her phone and rushed out,She didn’t even Look back.
THIS is the most painful moment of my life but I the truth is i don’t deserve Sam.
he dumped his ex for cheating on him,i don’t want him to die of pain because I know I will do worse.
I need him so badly,few days with him made me so happy but finally I lost him.
I opened the gate and that was when I heard his voice.
” SHREYA, you are going nowhere”he said.
I turned and he came to me, He was shedding tears.
“Nachari cheated on me so I left but you SHREYA, even if you cheat, cheat, cheat and stab me;I am going nowhere.
I have actually decided to love you till I die.
I don’t care what you do or what you have become.
So better return into the house with me because You are going nowhere.
We will fight this together
We will overcome this together
SHREYA,am ready now,
Am ready to love you now
I won’t hurt you again
I won’t call you an escort again
I will die with you.
Live for you
As long as you promise to never leave me” He said and i just hugged him tight.
He took me back into the house and I sat on the bed with him.
I already bathed where I was.
So I removed my cloth and sat on the bed with him in my undies.
He smiled like a baby and kissed me.
“So what did you buy for me,”he asked
I smiled and lifted the box of
“I don’t want chocolate, I want you.”He said and hugged me tight.
“Sam if i tell you the truth will you believe me?”i asked
“Yes” he said.
“I didn’t go to Michael’s”I said.
“Really” he added.
“Yes I left immediately after u left cos staying alone makes me misbehave.
I went to my friends house Sandra.
I waited until 4, that was why I came back exactly by 4 cos u told me u will return by 4 and I was timing you.”I said
“I knew you saw that text Michael sent last night, i knew, even when you marked it as unread and kept my phone.I almost went to him but i didn’t.I want to change for you” I said
He hugged me tight.
“I feel warm and you feel cold so…. ” I pulled out his shirt and hugged him tight.
he laughed and we fell on the pillow so I fell on him.
He gently tapped my back.
“Will you follow me somewhere tomorrow by 3am
“Or course I will follow anywhere
We both laughed.
Soon I felt sleepy and I felt him cover us well. I felt warm with him. I was happy.I am happy.
Even if the Red colour never touches me.
I am happy to have met Sam again.
I woke her up as early as 3 and we went out.
” Sam where to?
“To the ocean behind our house”I said.
“They can’t accept my prayer, am a sinner”she said.
Soon we walked down and finally arrived at the ocean.
It was so quiet and real.
The moon was out.
” Sam do you know what happens today?.
“India celebrates colours,we also honour the goddess of love and colours;Aphrodite”i said
She was wowed.
“You made me love India shreya,u made me get interested in our traditions” i said
She smiled and we walked in then knelt down.
It was so cold, I was scared of being bitten by a snake but shreya was so comfortable.
She freed her hair and covered it with a veil.
The water got up to our Tummy.
I watched her as tears streamed down her eye
My own tears streamed too.
SHREYA finally hummed a tune.
It was so powerful.
one of the most powerful and beautiful sounds a human being could ever make.
I felt so emotional.
I watched her as she hummed with her eye closed.
She deeped her face into the water and lifted it.
her lyrics melted my heart
?oh mother oh mother Aphrodite
“Oh mother oh mother Aphrodite.
“That My wrong,which is so wrong.
“That My sin,which I did consciously.
“Can you forgive?
? oh mother oh mother Aphrodite
“You are the goddess of love, Give Me a chance because I sinned for love.
“Give Me a new life because I failed love for love.
?you said love is beautiful please bless my love.
“You said love is true,please help me to be true
“I want a new live oh goddess
“Repent me,oh Aphrodite!!.
She took my hands and held me tight
? I call you , I call you!!
Just like i did, right from when I was 3.
What will you do, oh Aphrodite
“Your child is back oh goddess.
have you forsaken me..
? my future is dark make it bright
Shall i not wear red, but red is yours
Oh mother oh mother I came back
Will you really keep quiet oh Aphrodite
What a voice.
I felt a heavy lightning.
Even the water was no longer calm.
? I know I have a sad destiny.
“Please change my Destiny
“I know I am too dirty.
“Please clean me up.
Oh mother oh mother
She carried water and poured on my face
She carried water and poured on her hair.
I held her hand and we both walked out.
“Lets go home shreya”I said
She nodded,And that was how we left for India.
We arrived home and we where warmly welcomed.
My mom and grandma,everybody hugged shreya.
My dad hugged her everyone Misedher she was smilimg happily.
Until my brother rushed out
“Sam welcome”he hugged me.
He turned to her..he tried hugging her but halted
SHREYA looked so sad and shocked she bowed her face down
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